I went ass over head. I can not continue to live like this. I need some happiness. I can’t create it like this.
I’m almost 40. I dont think I’ve had much happiness in my adult life. Fleeting moments. I can honestly say I have been sad most of it. I can’t continue to live like this. It’s not worth it.
I want people to be excited I’m around. I want friends I can go out to dinner with and laugh. I want to feel love and accepted.
I am not in that place right now. I am going to find a way to make this life better.